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1. Cross
Road: Although at first glance, this may appear to be religious in
nature. It isn't. This image is an example of what I personally experienced
when undergoing a major obstacle in my life. It appears that I am
in an art gallery looking up at myself on what appears to be a cross.
The elements in the image are not what they appear to be: The cross
is composed of computer boards, the halo is a CD, the plank at the
top of the cross is somewhat representative of a building in the distance,
there is an image of my face in the mountains on the left of the horizon.
The "crown of thorns" is actually a dog collar that I had
used for two dogs that meant very much to me, and that had to be put
to sleep. The thorns in the crown are drawing implements, pens, pencils
and paint brushes, which are also falling from my hands. The parched
dry earth between my past, in the background and my present in the
fore ground, is dotted by patches of flowers, which are in actuality,
piles of pill bottles, representing the countless medications needed
to sustain life. Beneath the impaled image, from left to right: Me,
the medications that sustain the "quality of life" I now
"enjoy", medical implements and tools, bandages and various
medical ointments etc. Next, just below the suspended figure, are
the "special" medications, set aside for when the pain and
problems became too much to cope with, a release from life in bottles.
Next is my dog, Kai, who is confused by the two "me" situation,
and finally, the material in the far right lower corner, the "medications"
that I have taken from the street, which made my life a spiral staircase
of pain and pleasure. The implication of the two figures looking at
each other, is that no matter what happens, you cannot go back, you
can only reflect on what you have done, whether right or wrong, and
realize that the quality of life is what you make of it.
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2. Second
Glance: This is a piece that updates the image Cross Road. (Cross
Road was the first image created for this web site, and since much
has gone on since its creation, I felt compelled to "Update"
my situation. Second Glance, incorporates the feelings that have driven
my life in the past several years, the onset of blindness, bone diseases
resulting in several amputations and the overall questioning of what
is next. The image is that of me looking at the painting and wondering
what the person in it, is thinking about me looking at it for answers.
I feel we need to look within ourselves to find the answers that drive
us, and only through being analytical and aware of our situations,
can we find the truth.
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3. Ready for the future: This is the third in a series of autobiographical images depicting the depression one faces in the light of physical and financial desperation. The posters show what appears to be promotional posters for the movie "The Matrix", when in fact they make the statement that the future is not very promising, very much like the movie portrayal of the future. The figure sits in the dark, with a trash can full of medication by his side, and several other bottles on the ground. The figure now has no legs, unlike the first two in the series of paintings which started off with toes missing, then a leg missing in the second. Prosthetic legs can be seen leaning against the can on the right of the image, for they no longer aid the figure in his quest for success in the future. His faithful dog stays by his side, not sure what the future holds, but will stay by the side of the man no matter what. Rats move about the figure, as a light shines over the top of the can. An apparitional figure of the main character can be seen sitting on a trash can looking up at the "Are You Ready For The Future" poster. This represents the concept that the main character has felt the impact of the question before, and now faces it with even less to work with, physically and mentally.The figure can only wonder what this may lead to, is it a symbol to look for the bright side, is it someone looking for someone in the dark, or is it the authorities searching for a reason to end the freedom that the person has left? Is life truly in the trash and can it be saved?
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4. Memories:
This is an image of someone that has lost someone close to them, and
memories are all that are left. The figure is looking down at a photo
at his feet, which was used to create the painting. The figure is
surrounded by trash and appears to blend into the surroundings. This
conveys the emotional loss that can be experienced when hurt by the
loss of someone close, and the ways that are chosen to deal with the
loss
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5. Life
Source: This depicts the struggle I encountered, trying to decide
if I should continue to fight to keep the life energy I had left,
or to let it go, and accept the consequences and the peace that death
could bring.
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6.Climb:
This is a metaphorical image of an individual climbing to meet his
goals. If you look carefully at the background, notice that the rocks
are composed of skulls. This image is meant to portray the everyday
struggle we go through and the unseen dangers and obstacles we encounter.
There are 7 skulls in the image.
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7. Moon
Walk: This was created to show the conflict of information about our
"walking on the moon". The scientific evidence and the government
evidence create a controversy as to whether or not man has actually
walked on the moon. According to some scientific research, the surface
holds many aspects that would lead us to believe that the outcome
would be similar to that of the image "Moon Walk"
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8. Finding
Yourself: As we encounter problems in our life, we are reminded to
set goals for ourselves. The image here is the example of looking
toward a goal in life, and dealing with the obstacles we create for
ourselves along the way. The image is looking to the light for guidance,
the mountain is composed of the figure in various poses, some pleasant,
some not. Pain and suffering, mental and physical as well as pleasure
of creation and expression of ideas through ones abilities, and the
company of others and pets. Climbing over all the past experience
gets one closer to ones goal, retaining the memories of what was and
getting closer to what will be.
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9. Life
in a Bottle: This is an image that stems from personal experience.
Long years of medical treatment, of severe medical problems, that
led to a life dictated by a schedule of endless medications. The feeling
of being trapped by the bottle is something that must be experienced
to be understood, for sometimes a person wonders if it is worth being
kept alive by medication, rather than to simply live.
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10. Blinded:
This was created around the time of the 911 tragedy. I was disgusted
that it took such a tragedy to bring out the "American"
in people, displaying flags in so many ways. It was as though it was
a "Keeping up with the Jones'" situation. In my opinion,
if you believe strongly in something, it should not require a severe
tragedy to draw it out of you. Where are all the flags now?
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| 11. Not missed, left to be found, alone stripped of his legs, his dignity and his life. Human garbage is all it comes to in the end. |
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